I thought I should at least write something here cos It has been almost a month since my last writings so... yea. 

I was completely stuck on new topic to write, but oh well what could be better than writing what I felt now. So... something happened the other day. Let me get started with,  I totally understood the reason behind all of these things happening, and why someone did this while the other did that. As a matter of fact, I could not give a shit much on all of those reasoning and understanding. But, one thing remains for sure is my disappointment. Funny thing is, I am not sure with who or with what exactly I am disappointed at. Is it on my selfishness? or their decision? 

The thing is, I feel like I am not being appreciated enough. I wont go and boast my ego, saying how good I am or what I have done. They say that when you give your time to people, you give portion of your life to them thus it is only right to at least feel like I deserve something more than this. I'm not asking for something extravagant, or out of the borderline. But seems like they just don't get it, and so do I. And yes, maybe I am disappointed in myself for expecting too much and having a very high expectation on people but still at least that is something that they could do, for me, for my time. Even though now all is good, but still. At the very back of my mind, I kept questioning whether this is right? No, not questioning but I kept reassuring myself that everything is okay. But these reassurance kept coming back, days and days taunting me like crazy which leads me to keep my distance off of people. 

And I know this isnt right.... but I couldnt help it feeling this way. 

C