The Break Up Post
The Break Up Post
After spending
close to 3 years together, it was difficult to end something that used to be
really important for me. We were perfectly happy, the world and all its
problems seems like so insignificant. What I felt? Safe, secure, I know nothing
is coming our way. So, what happened? What happened is people grow up, and sometimes
they grow apart. As cliché as it sounds, it is true. We weren’t each others
priority, and life is getting its way through the relationship. We were both so
distracted that we almost forgot each other.
Holding on so tight to something that I knew
was not going to work out was totally wrong. It could have ended in a better
way, but it didn’t maybe because of my selfishness. It was nothing but
bittersweet. But whats the point of staying longer if it only brings misery? If
people asked me how I know this is it, it was really simple although it took
me a very long time to pull the trigger for real. I wasn’t feeling safe
anymore, nor secure. I feel like everything is crumbling apart, and coming back
to him always works, but this time it didn’t. Life gets its way too much, that
I was used to not having him around or him caring. It didn’t matter for me
whether he cares or not, because it didn’t matter anymore. I was simply used to
not having him around. I turned to other people for my problems, for
companionships. That’s how I know that it’s the end.
Was I sad? More than sad, I was heartbroken but I knew
it was coming sooner or later. I was heartbroken wayyyy before we ended things
for real. Its just the selfish me that drag everything too much. We could have
ended things much sooner. Was there anything left? Of course there are, after
almost 3 years being together how could there wont be? But regardless of what
is left from it, there is nothing we can do about it. The ship has sailed, so
does my heart and everything that I used to feel.
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