Random Babble Late at Night

I'm a rollercoaster lover, but this one is hell of a ride...
You make me so high yet in split second I was at my lowest.
Maybe all this time I was free falling,
Gravity holds me up, but in no time I found myself laying on the ground.

Maybe my expectation ruins myself.
For I am not allowed to blame anyone but myself.
You are so so good,
My weed, my ecstasy.

You are everything that I ever wanted, but I could never have.